deepest miss .

these day i miss you so much :'(

do you know ? do you hear i'm calling your name ?

i'm screaming your name , missing you badly .

 

A bitter day, everything will erase this way. Someday it will all be forgotten. I will probably smile when the time comes, but for now I can’t do anything about it.i wish i really can do it . Even though the weather is nice, I don’t feel good at all. Feels like it’s making fun of me, I start to get angry. Drowning in a difficult situation, I start to thrash. But the world is the exact opposite, it spins perfectly fine as if nothing is wrong
And you are also living well, It’s not fair, this is really not fair. Even the stares from the people passing by shows sympathy for me. Nothing is working out for me and because I missed the stop I was supposed to be off. I am suddenly reminded by the thoughts of you. The beaten up bus stop I got off looked even lonelier today so the tears just started to fall down
And like that I kept on walking for a long time. I started to miss you, who I used to just hate. Because I was so pathetic in my past days when I didn’t even have the strength to hold on to you. No matter what I say, it will all sound like an excuse to you. Even when I tell you that all of these words are for you. You were really too much for me, I almost felt uncomfortable like wearing the clothes that didn’t match me. You were beautiful, but watching you wither away next to me, how do you think that would make me feel? I shouldn’t have started at all, I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes the first time I met you. I thought that I would feel weightless if I let you go, but that wasn’t it. My mind understood the farewell, but my heart wouldn’t give in. Every day I would repeat drawing you and erasing you. I would handle all the suffering, I just wish that you would be happy. So that I this decision I made would not be worthlessness or bring any regrets. I will always pray for you. You will be able to receive even a better love compared to the one you received from me, you are still beautiful. You said we were going to remain forever, in the end we are the same as the others. A bitter day, everything will erase this way Someday it will all be forgotten. That day will come.

some question i don't know the answer, but i really want to know , i try hard to find the answer but till now i still don't know :( can somebody tell me , why the person we love the most always leave us in the end ? even we never give up hold on to the one but the one never want to be with . so last , i'm waiting someone 5 years already. MY MIND GIVE UP BUT MY HEART STILL NOT GIVE UP !! i just face it bravely .

 USELESSSSSSSSSSSSS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! :'( :'( :'(

 

please stop right there before i show tears. Stop right there before separation comes. So you can't leave, so you can't abandon me and leave. From here on, time please stop. Saying farewell, how am I supposed to be well. How am I supposed to send you away while smiling. I can't do that kind of stuff, I'll pretend I didn't hear it. Don't say anything and stop right there. The footsteps that are trying to leave, paste them onto the ground. Also paste the lips that is trying to say separation. So you can't leave, so you can't abandon me and leave. From here on, time please stop. Saying farewell, how am I supposed to be well. How am I supposed to send you away while smiling. I can't do that kind of stuff, I'll pretend I didn't hear it. Don't say anything and stop right there. I said we should break up through anger. I even spitted on the face that was smiling. I only paid back what you have done to me. You can't come now and just throw me away. Just because they're words, does it all make sense. How are you saying bye to me. I don't understand those words, I'll pretend I didn't hear it. The feet walking away, stop right there




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this is me with my lovely friends <3
we take this picture @golden prawn when during farewell party :'( with all friends and teachers , what a tiring day , but it joyful and sad . but fortunately i still with them <3

 

悲伤

心头发

你在哪里？你在做什么呢？我的心是深感忧虑。为什么你这么忙，你躲着我？。整个晚上你在哪里？你去哪儿？你为什么去那儿？我想你，不尝试别的。我要生气了，不说别的。现在，我在你面前，但你一直躺在（到此为止）。我只是检查一次。因为我喜欢你这么多。我很小心，没有人注意到。你爱我，像我爱你吗？你夸我的，无论你走到哪里，像我这样做吗？随着时间的推移我的爱去为你成长。因为它增长了我的疑虑增加。我只是想确认你的爱，每天晚上（）︿）)

歌曲流动。但由于某种原因，我感觉就像已经停止，我知道这一点。这是我需要的东西。也许你已经厌倦了。在令人窒息的prision。打出来，让我自由飞翔。我不能等待。这是星期六。你动摇我的心，我落入你。你在做什么呢？不是你想如何。无用的忧虑，即使给你打电话

刚刷将其赶走。今晚，我没有后顾之忧。每个人都经过逐一
播放音乐，音乐给你的身体，你觉得呢？可你觉得呢？移动缓慢
因为我不能等待。这是星期六晚上。注意不要在已经开始的游戏。这太短享受。你是我所看到的，请再回来。我觉得我的心会爆炸，我想我会爱上你。我想我会去你的嘴唇比巧克力更甜疯狂。如果今天结束，你可以带我到明天，我不介意在这一刻，我们还活着。



Where are you? What are you doing? My heart is deeply anxious. Why are you so busy that you’re avoiding me?. All night where are you? where are you going? why do you go there? I’m trying to figure you out, don’t try anything else. I’m getting angry, don’t say anything else. Right now I’m in front of you, but you keep lying (It ends here). I just checked once. Because I like you so much. I was very careful that no one noticed. Do you love me like I love you? Do you boast about me wherever you go like I do? As time goes by my love for you grows. As it grows my doubts increase. I just want to confirm your love, every night (︶︿︶)

The songs are flowing. But for some reason it feels like I have stopped, I know it. That there’s something I need. Maybe you’re tired too. In a suffocating prision. Break out, let me fly freely. and I can’t wait. it’s Saturday. You shake my heart,  I’m falling into you. What are you doing? Not how you wish. Even if useless worries are calling you
Just brush them off . tonight I got no worries. Everyone passes by one by one
play the music Giving your body to the music can u feel it? can u feel it? Move slowly
because I can’t wait. this is Saturday night. Don’t pay attention to the game that has started. It’s too short to enjoy. You’re all I see, please come back again. I think my heart will explode, I think I will fall for you. I think I will go crazy for your lips that are sweeter than chocolate. If today ends, you can take me to tomorrow, I don’t mind In this moment we are alive.