deepest miss .

these day i miss you so much :'(

do you know ? do you hear i'm calling your name ?

i'm screaming your name , missing you badly .

 

A bitter day, everything will erase this way. Someday it will all be forgotten. I will probably smile when the time comes, but for now I can’t do anything about it.i wish i really can do it . Even though the weather is nice, I don’t feel good at all. Feels like it’s making fun of me, I start to get angry. Drowning in a difficult situation, I start to thrash. But the world is the exact opposite, it spins perfectly fine as if nothing is wrong
And you are also living well, It’s not fair, this is really not fair. Even the stares from the people passing by shows sympathy for me. Nothing is working out for me and because I missed the stop I was supposed to be off. I am suddenly reminded by the thoughts of you. The beaten up bus stop I got off looked even lonelier today so the tears just started to fall down
And like that I kept on walking for a long time. I started to miss you, who I used to just hate. Because I was so pathetic in my past days when I didn’t even have the strength to hold on to you. No matter what I say, it will all sound like an excuse to you. Even when I tell you that all of these words are for you. You were really too much for me, I almost felt uncomfortable like wearing the clothes that didn’t match me. You were beautiful, but watching you wither away next to me, how do you think that would make me feel? I shouldn’t have started at all, I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes the first time I met you. I thought that I would feel weightless if I let you go, but that wasn’t it. My mind understood the farewell, but my heart wouldn’t give in. Every day I would repeat drawing you and erasing you. I would handle all the suffering, I just wish that you would be happy. So that I this decision I made would not be worthlessness or bring any regrets. I will always pray for you. You will be able to receive even a better love compared to the one you received from me, you are still beautiful. You said we were going to remain forever, in the end we are the same as the others. A bitter day, everything will erase this way Someday it will all be forgotten. That day will come.

some question i don't know the answer, but i really want to know , i try hard to find the answer but till now i still don't know :( can somebody tell me , why the person we love the most always leave us in the end ? even we never give up hold on to the one but the one never want to be with . so last , i'm waiting someone 5 years already. MY MIND GIVE UP BUT MY HEART STILL NOT GIVE UP !! i just face it bravely .

 USELESSSSSSSSSSSSS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! :'( :'( :'(

 

please stop right there before i show tears. Stop right there before separation comes. So you can't leave, so you can't abandon me and leave. From here on, time please stop. Saying farewell, how am I supposed to be well. How am I supposed to send you away while smiling. I can't do that kind of stuff, I'll pretend I didn't hear it. Don't say anything and stop right there. The footsteps that are trying to leave, paste them onto the ground. Also paste the lips that is trying to say separation. So you can't leave, so you can't abandon me and leave. From here on, time please stop. Saying farewell, how am I supposed to be well. How am I supposed to send you away while smiling. I can't do that kind of stuff, I'll pretend I didn't hear it. Don't say anything and stop right there. I said we should break up through anger. I even spitted on the face that was smiling. I only paid back what you have done to me. You can't come now and just throw me away. Just because they're words, does it all make sense. How are you saying bye to me. I don't understand those words, I'll pretend I didn't hear it. The feet walking away, stop right there




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this is me with my lovely friends <3
we take this picture @golden prawn when during farewell party :'( with all friends and teachers , what a tiring day , but it joyful and sad . but fortunately i still with them <3